i feel so dead. well i felt dead last night so i think i am dead. my heart isnt beating like last time. i dont know why. my heart is aching. and i smile without feeling happy.

i am NOT emo. im heartbroken. at least i think i am. LOVE hurts when you are me, cause im fucking sensitive and i cry a lot. but yesterday night was not like any other sad nights. i truely cried my heart out.

you wont see me online as often, i may not reply tags, i wont blog anymore until i feel happy, i will concentrate on outings of my precious friends and happy phone calls and smses, of course, from important people.

thank you to people who always cared. but if you dont then i think im hallucinating about nice people comforting me and making me laugh. gawd. im crazy.

take care and have fun during the holidays. see you soon. this is the most boring and serious post i ever posted.

bye.
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you.