Love/Hate Light

Sunday, March 30, 2008

6:32 PM; SIANED.

i need you.

11:56 AM; 200th post.

im sorry ! X:
sigh.

pictures are in my memory card and my memory card is in my spare phone.
thus, i cant blog about any pictures cause im lazy.
and tired.
and no mood.

have i made the right choice?
i dont know.
im just confused.
nobody understands.

HE who doesnt care.
HE who always make me wonder.
HE who doesnt give me what i want.
HE who i chose.

HE who cares a lot.
HE who always was there.
HE who made me laugh.
HE who i didnt choose.

i think im dumb.
maybe i dont deserve anything.
or maybe, he, doesnt deserve me.
cause im bad. im very very terrible.

doing proj now.
bye .

x3

this is my 200th post.
gawd.

the sun will set for you.
X:

Saturday, March 29, 2008

8:04 AM;

the some small little lady buggggggggggggggggggg (:

fransis changrui and his friend. [ i have no idea how to spell his name ]
well, he keeps laughing.
WO CHI NI DE JIANGGGGGGGGG-IANGGGGGG. hahahahahah.

i wanted to take a photo of them. then they kept walking away. so i was like, you dont have to look at me! just pretend u looking at something.
guess what.
they quickly picked something random from the table and started talking about it.
HAHAHAHAH :D
shijie's holding a sharpener. yep. its THAT random.

nina and isabella (:

my spare phone and nina's phone. heheheheheh ;D

isabella baika X: nina combing hair. im twisting to be ENTHU! kaiyuan & shijie. (:

ME AND JIEJIE x3
sorry uhhh X:

im supposed to do the magazine cover for the homec.
so yeah. BYEEE!

im so glad yesterday is over.
he was so sweet.
<'3

Friday, March 28, 2008

7:01 AM; EMO-PISSED-DAYS.

umm so yesterday was quite okay.
the after school time made up for the bad bad moody day. (:
heres what happened..
during lesson time, i was like freaking pissed at everything.
people kept saying i was noisy, whatever lah.
im pissed, dont tell me you're quiet when u feel like angry?
and if one day im very very quiet, means that theres something REALLY wrong.
and you should start caring for me THEN. Z.

after school, had to stay back for the announcement thingy.
so scared lah. oh btw, its 7.03AM now. on friday.
later meeting isabella to go school.
should reach at 3. but we go early to help decorate classroom.
NINE LEHHH .
but anyways, im already awake.
OMG, shadow of the day by linkin park is nice(:

yesterday after the school, i stayed in class..
wanted to do my maths homework..
but aiya, no mood.
joseph kept making me laugh.
AWWW THANK YOU(:
hahahahhahah. its like everytime i say ' HANAHANA' meaning annoyed kind of YALAHYALAH.
he will go like ' RIHANNARIHANNA' hahahahah.
he rocks lah.

my father thinks that i have fever.
OMG):
anyways, having severe headache.
LALALALALA unwell is nice!
benjamin ask me to download, i dl lerh, but never load into phone.
NOW MY PHONE SPOIL! so cannot load.
sorrysorry X:

i know i keep talking about random stuff.
OKAY. about yesterday after school.
after once practice [ a new guy wanted to steal my speech, gawd, social reject. ]
hes like.. Z lah.
show you our DAO-ISH conversation.

HIM:so you're raina?
ME: umm, yeah.
HIM:do you know my name?
ME: uhh, no.
HIM: have you seen me before? [ BIG EGO! ]
ME: uhh, yeah.
HIM: do you want to know my name?
ME: uhh, NO.
then i walked with the teacher.
HEHEHEHEHEHEH =p

after the first practice, it starting to have lightning.
really damn scared lah X:
then it started to rain damn heavily.
i think i got sick like that.
cause i walked in the rain.
with eehwee isabella vera and changrui ;D

SO FUN CAN!
okay at first, me vera changrui eehwee wanted to find kialiang cause he left his bag in the classroom and we had to lock it up lahh.
then we seperated to find him.
then met in canteen.
so we decided not to wait for kialiang lahh.
so changrui me vera eehwee wanted to go.
then isabella called me, so she joined us.
saw iris! but she needed to pass geolin something, so we went first.
MET ALPHONSUS AT SIDE GATE!
like more and more people right.
so cool lorh.

but he waiting for bus.
AWWWW):
laughed a lot lah.
but was like totally WET.
ME AND ISABELLA! the pasir ris pros ;
brought eehwee to loyang point! shes never been there before.
OMG! xD ate at macs.
then i walked home alone):
it was really fun though.
splashing into puddles of water like nobody's business.
(:

IM SICK ):
i miss you..
felt like talking but i couldnt.
and my phone spoil.
SIAN):
you were so sweet.
thankyou.
ILOVEYOU!
x3

this is the longest post cause of boredom.
nono. the longest post cause i have nothing to do from now till 8.25
AM.

BYEEEEE(:

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

5:59 PM; HOMECCCCCCCCC :D

THATS THE END RESULT (:

im not going to post all the fun pictures that we took during homec with everyone's food because KIALIANG says that i look FUGLY.
whatever.

but it was really fun lah.
cause they ALL didnt mind me looking like a fuck tart.
just because i didnt want my points to be deducted.
they damn nice lahh...
but it was really fun.
(:

im SO glad that kialiang changrui and joseph wasnt in my group of homec people.
as in they are in dNt.
can you imagine me being so stressed up over the food
AND the comments i get from them?

the homec people are so AWESOME((:
they rock lah..
they very nice.
jinda and ruisiang.
YAYYYY(:
we were like sharing the knife, hot water and cucumber.
SO FUNNY!
lol. they damn nice neighbours lahhhh(:
x3

just like during drama.
jinda and krichelle.
only now is ruisiang instead of joseph.
but still damn fun ;D
love ittttttttttttttttttt(:

they two kept making me laugh lahhh!
aiya. homec ppl should know.
they damn relaxed and kept laughing.
so joke-able(:
UNLIKE KIALIANG.

anyways, we all ate each other's food.
ONLY me and krichelle's one never touch.
they say too nice to touch. AWWWW(:
hahahahahahahah.
HOMEC PEOPLE RAWK! x3
aiya, the fun-ness [ yes i just created a new word ]
and the laughter will be very very nice memories (:
only people who are nice will have them!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

BYE x3
yes, im high.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

1:06 PM;

i shall blog about yesterday (:
yesterday..
i met isabella zi yun & zi mei at whitesands for lunch.
they treated me to a drink.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW x3

hahahahah then we went through the JARED DRAMA!
long story X:
then emo-ed to the playground beside.
damn fun.
(:

got swing. and the seesaw was like AWESOME(:
yes. im a deprived child who has never been to a playground before.
NO LAH. only that my condo playground SUCKS big time .
thats all.
so the four of us were like singing and singing.
damn fun.
it was even raining.
actually, no.
there was lighting and thunder and drizzle.(:

when the song had like high keys we shouted lah.
damn fun. release all my emotions. :D
we were very broke luhh.
then their father purposely came down to whitesands to give them 30dollars.
SO NICE RIGHT!
then they told me about their papa.
SO NICE. uncle is SO SO SO nice.
=p

then i had to go tm to meet my family for dinner at jack's place.
my dad was drying himself by walking around.
my sis was at macs teaching her junior.
my mom was at jeanyip. MOM. xD
i, was on my way to tm luhhh!
ate then went home.

GUESS WHERE DID I JUST CAME HOME FROM!
the market! long time never go shop. for grocery.
its so fun can! run here run there to ACTUALLY buy food.
COOL MAN. maybe im like too spoilt lah.
never go market in a long long time.
sheesh.

later going aunty's house for dinner.
YAYYYNESS! long time never go lerh.
oks. byeeeeeeeeeee! x3

i think i am going to repeat my mistake and get hurt all over again.

8:30 AM; HEYYYYYYY ;D

im really confused now.
by 3 people. X:
nevermind.
lets see what will happen, okay?
):

im doing my journal entry, silver workforces.
typing lah. im lazy =p

tell me the truth,
do you really LOVE me?

ouch.
that hurt.
A LOT.

byeee X:

PS: update ;
i just finished my silverworkforce thingy.
and im doing my corrections for the other one. LOL.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

9:44 AM; PICTURES! I LOVE YESTERDAY!

ME&NUER ! we were wearing same kappa flats. (:

she was happy that she got my phone cause i didnt let her touch it. (:

yayyyyy :D

BIGWORLDDDD.

HUGGGGGGGG!

YEAH(:

xDD

out-gaying myself.

T3 (:

the big fan that MOVES. xD [ claire was really tired ]

the lift. ;D

CLAIREEE!

spastic me=x

we were at the back stage of the kids macdonals. LOL!
they kept saying ' DO YOU WANT TO EAT THE BURGERS OR SEE ROALDMACDONALS?'
then claire went to sit with the kids. then i whispered in her ear.
' later they force you to EAT YOUR BURGER! '
then we laughed off. (:

tired claire. after running up the travelator that's going down. X:

check innnnnnnnn ;D

' excuse me? ' (:

fountain. the water got light okay. got GREEN! so nice lahh. she eating chocolate. xD

whitesands (:

her pink gang. IN THE MRT! xD everyone on her row was wearing pink. we KEPT laughing.

CHANGI AIRPORT MRT ! xD

YAYYY!

LALALALALA!

long long escalator!

CLAIRE x3

lol

cool public phone with cursor ._.

got TOUCH SCREEN some more xD

and got game ._.

she was sleeping okay. she was so freaking tired. xD

THE END !
at the back is the mac donals thing. xD

how we got there...
met her at whitesands.
mrt-ed to changiairport lorhh!

how i came back.
hahahahahahahah.
mrt-ed to whitesands.
21-ed back. xD

yesterday was fun.
everything was fun.
everything was okay.
loved yesterday. (:

sorry for so many pictures X:

Friday, March 21, 2008

6:02 PM; TERMINAL THREE!

went to T3 with clairengshimin!
her sister was gonna come back from italy.
then she was going to meet her family after meeting me.
took a lot of photos.
((:

as if we were tourists.
but its like damn fun lahhh!
post pictures soon.
LOVE!

10:41 AM; HELLO!

im like in a freaking weird mood now.
happy and angry and sad.
hahahahahahahah.

anyways, kialiang is such a great friend.
my best friend siahhhhhh!
hate him so much no one can ever tell.
he rocks. Z .
lie lie lie. PURPOSELY dont want to tell me.
to think that i trusted you.
IRIS! im really stupid luhh. told you liao.

and chad's his good friend. GREAT!
placing me BELOW him.
hahahahahahahah.
just like how kialiang put me below zoe.
WOW. it feels great you know guys.
to think that i really really risked everything
JUST to tell you the newest news.
DAMN.
IT.

im not going to tell ANYTHING to kialiang and chad anymore.
hahahahahahahahahah.
and i will purposely tell chang rui.
(:
guys, it will feel GREAT. cant wait right?

i realised that, SOME people can be replaced. but only A FEW cant be.
trust me. if you have friends that treats you for granted,
you can find another one.
and great news! i've found a new great friend.
MUAHAHAHAHAHAH.

next.
you know last time, chang rui say his attitude change? into a nicer person lah.
then i say its because of me tooo! then he say i play a SMALL SMALL part.
now, he sit there alone, become so attitude and so...like last time.
see lah, i play a SMALL SMALL part horh.
(:
should go call him sooner or later.
poor thing!
xDDD

OKAYYYY!
BYEBYE!
I MISS CLAIREY-POOP-IN-THE-TOILET-BOWLLLLLL! :D

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

3:44 PM;

hello (:
i hate it when roy dont tell me something when there IS something. gawd.
anyways, im doing my IPW powerpoint. it just stopped raining.
i walked through the rain okay!
long story. usually i will be glad to tell but now im eating and typing. so im typing with only one hand. and its DAMN FREAKING tiring.

thats nina talking to zoe and pulling her hair in geog lesson =p

thats iris at the back doing her work, joseph and joey, nina and zoe, still talking =p

xuron and chad. SLACKING. nick sleeping. xD infront of xuron.

from isabella place. roy and ruisiang. xDD geog teacherrrrrrrrrrr ;D

yesyes. i wasnt listening too. X:
IPWIPW. i finding pictures. xD

oksoks. gtg ;D byeee x3