Love/Hate Light

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

6:51 PM;

okay i probably wont blog anymore.
having bad days since forever.

i need claire):
sigh. nothing's the same.
what-ever man.

im not perfect.
no one can expect me to be perfect.
i know you are.
i know you all are.
only i am not.
okay?

in everyone's eyes im nobody.
im just a crazy person who complains about everything.
im just a person who is so ugly no one wants to be friends with me.
im just a person who likes to say people.

enough.
i know i am ugly.
i know i am crazy.
i know who i am.
stop making me lose everything can?

i know im not worth your time.
not worth to be your friend.
not worth you to even LOOK at me.
fine fine.
then just kill me.

is life like that?
leaving the stupid fugly person aside?
if it is,

great.

ppl hurt me with their words.
i may cry.
but the pain isnt gone.
it becomes more and more pain.

thank you everyone.
for everything you all did to me.
good or bad.

please,
just leave me alone.
im dragging you down.

im a useless piece of shit.
okay?
just.
GO AWAY.

))))))))))))))))):
im breaking down now.
im hurt.
too hurt.
i didnt know ppl judge me.
people who i thought were my friends.
my GOOD friends.

life sucks.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

9:36 PM;

i wont be using the comp.
so i cant blog.

shall upload the photos another day.
goodbye.

Friday, January 25, 2008

4:58 PM;

hello :DDDDDDD
okayy.
ummmm.
just popped in to say..
HELLO!
okay. im so retarded.
im so bored.
i gtg anyways.
nothing to blog about.

except that i like it when people listen to me.
i hate it when nobody listens to me.
especially my good friends.

):

Sunday, January 20, 2008

1:11 PM;

TODAY'S SENTENCE : ' i called him so many times because after i put down, i miss him again '
lol xD

heyyyyy ;D
lame and random pictures because i have no idea what to blog.
X:

nice? i drew it. xD i love it leh. O_O

my study room.

my aweeeeesome BIG screen along with CD printer scanner and usual stuff.

now you get how big it is.
(:

my bedroom

GUESS WHICH IS MY BED!

duhh xD

my awesome nike jacket.

oh my hse is VERYVERYVERY small.
(:

next time take my dining, living, corridor, mom's bedroom and study room bah! and kitchen.
LOL.
my phototaking skills sucks.

EEEEEEEEEEEYER!
oh.

Friday, January 18, 2008

3:39 PM;

i shall name my blog baby14.
(:

BABY! X:
okay.. you are the only one who wants to listen to me.
or rather, currently free to listen to me cause you have no other things in your mind.
hahahah. look im crazy. i am ACTUALLY talking to a non-living website. lol.

okay..
14th is valentines. thinking of it already makes me sad enough..
my 7th month too ):
i should be happy but i have no idea whats going on.

to the people i've hurt.
naming..

KRICHELLE.
CHANG RUI.
ISABELLA.
NINA.
JING HUI.
and a few other ppl..

i dont mean to like make fun or you or make a fuss out of something small.
keep crying and stuff.

im sorry.
truely sorry X:

cause..
i've been in denial [ like krichelle says] i keep lying to myself.
lol.. and i just want to keep crying.
and i keep blaming someone, ANYONE, so that i can feel sad and cry.
when im already sad enough.

i dont really feel sad when my good friends do things to upset me..
come on, they are my good friends..
i just want to cry.
so im making up any excuse to cry.

man. im so mean.
i shouldnt be so selfish.
BABY. help me kay.
help me tell them im sorry.

i didnt mean it. i really didnt.
espacially ...

krichelle - my best partner. love her so much. im really sorry dear mummy ): thanks for always cheering me up and all. you rock my life and everyone's asses.

isabella and nina - my best friends.. i dao you to make you all care. when you all already do. im so stupid. sorry. really sorry): just thank you. X: i suck.

changrui - gawd.. im sorry kay. i didnt mean to cry at everything you say about me or to me. its just that im so weak that anything anyone says can just break me down. sorry..

others - if i have offended you, im really sorry. you all will know why next time when things happen. ):

SORRYSORRY. ):
im so useless.

byeee.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

5:50 PM;

heyyyyyyyy (:

- i carved your name on the bullet so that everyone will know that you were the last thing that went through my mind x3

- i laughed at my keyboard because i saw that U and I were beside each other (:

- you caused my so much pain i cry each night but
you dont care
you have her,
you're fine. x/3

- come what may, i will love you till the day i die x3

- okay... there is this one boy who makes it hard to breathe, think, speak or even, sleep.
i love him anyways (:

- my mind tells me to give up but my heart wont let me.

- she misses feeling loved.

- love is the most beautiful bruise.

- love is like heaven but it hurts like hell.

-i'll be love's suicide.

- i love him. he's happy. he loves her. LIFE STINKS.

- you're weird, crazy & a complete idiot. but i love you anyways x3

- anyone can make you smile.

many people can make you cry.

but it takes someone special

to make you smile with tears in your eyes(:

- true love is when you dont wanna sleep at night `cause real

life is better than a dream ;D

- valentines day [n] - just another day that makes me feel bad about you.

- the spaces between my fingers are meant to be filled with yours X:

AWWWWW. X:

byeee (:

Monday, January 14, 2008

6:13 PM;

happy 6mth...

lol. everyone celebrated with me lah.
thank you everyone (:
love you guys!

went to sakae sushi with krichelle sandy joey aja lixuan and jinqhui .
oh and i lost my voice.
hahahah. they are so crappy they make me laugh so much ((:

they rock.
hahahah.
sandy is very very hiqh.
crazy bimbo.
hahahahah.

at first very very very very very happy.
then when take bus back, missed him ):
i read the shweeeeet msges he smsed me recently..
seriously... i dont expect much.
or rather, i expect a lot but i dont insist and demand what!

ilovehim.
i really do X:
aiya.
im an emo P.O.S
piece of shit btw.

lol. my sister has always been right.

guys ARE dense.

byeee people X:
love is so complicated.
no. its simple.
but hard to understand.
COMPLICATED LAH!

zzz.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

8:40 AM;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO :

KRICHELLE MUMMY AND BESTIEEEE! 11.01.1994

CLAR JIE AND BESTIEEEEEEEE! 12.01.1994

ISABELLA JIEJIE AND BESTIEEEEEEE! 13.01.1994

CHADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ; 6MTH(: 14.01.2008

WENQIIII BARNEY ! 15.01.1991

WAHAHAHAHAH ;D

ohoh. i got maple at home liao ;DDD

Thursday, January 10, 2008

7:44 PM;

ohoh. i remember le! xD

i look very different in every picture! xDDD byeee.

7:00 PM;

SORRY SORRY FOR NOT BLOGGING FOR SO LONG ):

i will post a lot of pictures. and i'll let the pictures do the talking! cause as everyone knows, my memory sucks ;D

ENJOY!~
almost 40pictures dudes.

i look like barney ;D

our begging cup. nobody giveeeeee ):

my new shoes+heels+flats xD

CLAIRE CAME BACK ;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

ME & HER x3

ME & HER x33

ME & HER x3

ME & HER x333333

ME & HER & NINA on ONE BIKE x3

THREE! many tactics lah. damn funny.

threeeeee. i was going to fall. xD

TIRED AND SWEATY BUT DAMN FUN x3

ME & HER & NINA on ONE BIKE x3

AHHHH! falling xD

NINA RAWK (:

hahaha going to fall again xD

NINA THE ROCKIEST DRIVER (:

ME & HER & NINA on ONE BIKE x3

AWWWWW(:

ME & HER & NINA on ONE BIKE x3

NINAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ;D

nanchiau. AGAIN. hello :X

okayyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

nowadays i keep crying. wtf is my problem?
CRAZY.
ughhh. i miss claire lah ):

with her, its harder to cry xD
hahahahah.
BFF x33

ummmmm.
i wanted to type something.
but ...

i forgot ):

okayokay. ummm. if i remember then i post again kay!
LOVE!

Sunday, January 6, 2008

2:59 PM;

I LOVE YOU! x33

11:05 AM;

while waiting for my lunch, i went blog hopping ;D

What were you in your past life?
You were ... a Columbian drug lord.

'What were you in your past life?' at QuizGalaxy.com

hahahah.


	raina Pills: Will cause hair to turn blue
	'What effect do you have on people?' at QuizGalaxy.com

LOL.

RAINA --

[adjective]:

Extremely flatulent

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

what-ever man!

You are 53% evil

You are very evil. You are fairly practical in your evil deeds and you probably wouldn’t do anything illegal. You are more inclined to not do anything when you see that something bad is about to happen. Think Seinfeld.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

awwwwwwww.

RAINA's Random Movie Quote:

'Being bad feels pretty good, huh?'

- John Bender, The Breakfast Club

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

WAHAHAAH. xD

	Have You Been Naughty or Nice This Year?
wakko thought you were naughty - and gave you RABIES!
glitch25 thought you were nice - and gave you a bottle of champagne!
izzbot thought you were nice - and gave you a hot fudge sundae!
sinisterdreams thought you were naughty - and gave you a collection of their toenail clippings!
gravesme thought you were naughty - and gave you a stapler!
gaymafiakingpin thought you were naughty - and gave you devil horns!
'Have YOU Been Naughty or Nice This Year?' at QuizGalaxy.com

lol. naughty. :X

Your darkest secret is:	You accidentally went back in time and killed a dodo bird

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

LOL.
im sorry dodo brid X:
sorry that you are extinct.

bgcolor="#CC00CC">color="#FFFFFF">Jaywalking beside a police station

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actually, i would leh.
(:

okayy. byeeee x33

i waited for you call.
you told me you were calling!
your mom i guess..
12.30am.
i still waited.
awwwww):

Saturday, January 5, 2008

3:32 PM; SIANSIAN.

lollllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.

ummm. our new english teacher is SO frank with us. lol. yay! with her no need to learn some stupid shyt about moral education and RICH2 . LOL. lamest thing on earth that i will ever have to learn.

next.

OMG LAH!

MS ng is our form teacher. hahah. not that bad actually(:

MR neo is our history teacher. scary right? but not very bad leh! quite fun xD

MR i-like-to-not-on-my-mic-but-keep-moving-the-speaker is our chinese teacher. apparently, he is zhang lao shi and he never on his mic but still keeps moving the speaker. yep.

MR tan geography teacher. cannot pronounce well but is not fierce(:

the other not very shocking or bad or anything so nth to blog about them.

IM NOT A DESPO!
lol. i dont think i need your call!
after u ask PEOPLE to call when i ask YOU to call!
omqqqq!
hahaahh.
perfect boyfriend! NOT!
lol. i dont care anywayyyyyyyyyys!

isabella nina claire and krichelle and some other phone chatting and msn people keeps me entertained .

LALALALALA _|_

fcukkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
study.
study.
study.
YEAH(:

Friday, January 4, 2008

10:59 PM;

wahhhhhhhhh):

why havent you called in like 3 days?
i know its not your fault but im like dying you know..
i miss you to death.
i know i caused you a lot but i just want to know whats going on.
shoot me the hurting question.
just end your pain.
dar.

im a problem for you. gawd.
i took you for granted. and now i think im a complete idiot.
i cannot believe you tolerate so much. ME. ME?
lol. just..break my heart instead of me breaking yours kay.

ILOVEYOU ):
i really do.

i will stay up everyday just for you call.
although 3days you have not called, i will still wait.
cause thats the only thing i can do.
hope.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

12:09 AM;

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

BABY ITS 2007 to 2008 YAYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

lol. ummm all the best kay!

2008 so hard to write.

LOL. so different. ):