Love/Hate Light

Friday, January 18, 2008

3:39 PM;

i shall name my blog baby14.
(:

BABY! X:
okay.. you are the only one who wants to listen to me.
or rather, currently free to listen to me cause you have no other things in your mind.
hahahah. look im crazy. i am ACTUALLY talking to a non-living website. lol.

okay..
14th is valentines. thinking of it already makes me sad enough..
my 7th month too ):
i should be happy but i have no idea whats going on.

to the people i've hurt.
naming..

KRICHELLE.
CHANG RUI.
ISABELLA.
NINA.
JING HUI.
and a few other ppl..

i dont mean to like make fun or you or make a fuss out of something small.
keep crying and stuff.

im sorry.
truely sorry X:

cause..
i've been in denial [ like krichelle says] i keep lying to myself.
lol.. and i just want to keep crying.
and i keep blaming someone, ANYONE, so that i can feel sad and cry.
when im already sad enough.

i dont really feel sad when my good friends do things to upset me..
come on, they are my good friends..
i just want to cry.
so im making up any excuse to cry.

man. im so mean.
i shouldnt be so selfish.
BABY. help me kay.
help me tell them im sorry.

i didnt mean it. i really didnt.
espacially ...

krichelle - my best partner. love her so much. im really sorry dear mummy ): thanks for always cheering me up and all. you rock my life and everyone's asses.

isabella and nina - my best friends.. i dao you to make you all care. when you all already do. im so stupid. sorry. really sorry): just thank you. X: i suck.

changrui - gawd.. im sorry kay. i didnt mean to cry at everything you say about me or to me. its just that im so weak that anything anyone says can just break me down. sorry..

others - if i have offended you, im really sorry. you all will know why next time when things happen. ):

SORRYSORRY. ):
im so useless.

byeee.