nina, dont cry.

im too selfish.
im really sorry zoe.
like sorry for making you feel so sad all the time.
but you must really try to understand,
i didnt mean to.

sorry for everything i've cause you.
like i didnt know my small little actions can cause such heartbreak.
i didnt realise.

dont worry, from today,
i will just put whatever difficulties im facing that stops me from being friends with you,
and just be bffs.

nina called me and told me like you cry because of me..
and that like i keep telling her i deserve today.
cause its now me who is hurt and everything.
now i understand how selfish i am.

i know like no one will understand how much i need to rely onto people,
or how many things i have to think of being doing something.
or just really, what to do to make who happy.
when i realise that maybe i just wanted me to be happy.

im not going to stop anything now.
nothing will go my way.
things have changed, and im accepting it.
but i cry not because things are changing.
its maybe because its changing too fast.

im not going to rely on anyone,
of course its not easy, but im going to try.
cause relying on someone really can cause many troubles.

thanks for being such great friends zoe, nina isabella and claire ;
im really sorry,
and truthfully, i wont be the person i was anymore.
maybe..

not only things have changed.
maybe i will change too.

independence.









sigh.